n: My Baby is Missing!

Well today was the day that Miranda left to go to her dad's. I always have such emotions as she leaves. I want her to go so she can spend time with him and his family BUT I miss her terribly. In my mind it is alot harder to let her go for 6 weeks then it would be for her to go every other weekend to see him. Six weeks is a looooooooong time when you are used to having her around everyday. I thought when she was younger that as she got older it would be easier but it doesn't. I actually think it gets harder. We are such good friends and have so much fun together. We laugh and play around like two teenage girls.

Last night Todd, Miranda, and myself went out to eat together as her goodbye dinner. We had such a great time laughing and playing. Oh how I love and treasure those times.

As I let her go each time it is hard....I remember when she was 6 and we told her good bye to go to her dad's house. My dad was in the hospital. We all knew in our hearts that it would probably be the last time they would see each other. I can remember her hugging and kissing him goodbye. I can remember exactly what my daddy said and it did just like it was yesterday. He hugged and kissed her and told her that he loved her to the moon and back. He then gave her the thumbs up as she walked out the door. He said I love you and will see you very soon. As she left my daddy told my moma that he knew that was the last time he would ever see her. He died four days later. It was so hard not having Miranda there with me. My brother in law flew to Wisconsin to get her and bring her back to Vicksburg. I remember when she got there she was go sad. It was so hard to see my baby broken hearted. You have to remember she had already lost her dad to divorce and an my brother to death. I tried to talk to her and she just really didn't want to say anything. Later she looked at me and said it is really sad that we are going to bury grump(that is what she called my dad) on his birthday. I said yes it is....then Miranda said why can't we still have a birthday party for him....I said uh why can't we....so that is just what we did. After the funeral we went back to our church for lunch and then after lunch we had balloons...everyone wrote a special not on them and then we sent them to heaven to grump. My how those memories can seem like yesterday.....as I sit here typing this knowing that in two days his death will once again be so real to me...it is just so hard. I miss him so very much! I know he is around...he makes himself known to me at times but it still doesn't make it any easier! Okay enough of the sob party...

When I came home from work today Miranda was already gone but had left me a GREAT surprise. When I turned on my computer she had changed my back ground and put another picture on it...her is what she put on it: